Something I wrote earlier...

Not to have a theme ~ but it has been a remarkable journey recovering from spinal surgery.  Often lonely, rarely boring...


♒ Displaced Misplaced ♒

Speak to me, gentle child
As only you know the words
Sadly we cant read your mind
You must tell us to be heard

Standing in your shoes, alone
You think no one understands
The more you share, tell & say
Gives us knowledge so we can

If you dont like the actions
Then say they are not pleasing
When what is said is not for you
Say things you know, give reasoning

See those who love you most of all
Can read, see & hear when naught is said
But that you know which we do not
Sets the tensions and causes dread

Feel no shame, no fault, no guilt
Truly ~ what have you done wrong
Lean upon, take support, take help
Share the load, the pain, be strong

Know when it all is way too hard
Or choices made erode space & time
I listen to the pain, the muddled words
And take no fault, no blame, its not mine

On a bit of a roll, so I have also included:

♒ Replay the Day ♒

Did you know you can try again
Give things another go
Sometimes its easier the second time
That's one thing we ought to know
With a chance to replay the day
How would you place the blame
I never understood separate rules
But I'd do it all the same
With a chance to replay the day
I'll use my strength within
And smile, greet with no regret
I wouldn't change a thing✰

βε(̆̃̃εїϑℯ їռ ოﻪցﻨ८ & ℐﻪ℧ჭɦʈeʁ ☮❤☺
ℱя❀₥ ~ℳ∢η₫☡

An admission ~ I write things . . .

Poems, prose, lyrics and stories.  I'm writing novel - have been for a while.  Two actually - one of 'fluff', one real.

Anyway - a lovely friend, Sara, told me to publish and I think this links to my Facebook now - so I hope you can read my current offering.  I would love feedback - and to know how you came to stumble across this piece.

With love


♒ Blue Dragons ♒   βყ ℳ∢η₫☡

So tell me friend what it is you plan for your precious crazy life
There must be more than travelling fast, to get somewhere not precise
When the swirling winds of pain & blame & shame are finally through
The one who wishes only love & peace awaits quietly to hear from you

Dreams and tales do not deny dragons, they just tell us they can be slain
Challenges make life interesting, the meaningful trials you overcame
Do you worry if it might be failure, about what others may think or say or see
That's always been the one thing that was so different with you & me

A shining refection upon mirrored stone, connecting love & insight
The attraction, a victim of blue dragons fights the desire to follow hope bright
One thing to learn at day's end, knowing the morning ahead is brand new
Is the weak cant forgive, it's a trait of the strong, like the bond held by me & you

❤ ~ ٭ ĜɚяĐeη รթгﻨռĸlεร ٭☽ ☆
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βε(̆̃̃εїϑℯ їռ ოﻪցﻨ८ & ℐﻪ℧ჭɦʈeʁ ☮❤☺

Can we just start this all again . . .

OK ~ I say there is no failure when you look and see that the job can be done better than how you are doing it currently. We are not getting those savings up, that credit card down, the mortgage more lowerer and QLD any closerer.

But we are always trying, reviewing, reassessing, changing the bits that don't work and leaving the bits that do. However - one bit hurdle is the main male in this story. MyMan and time management, prioritising just don't happen. Starting to make things really hard on the reliability stakes or full family participation type stuff.

But we've got through some of the crappiest situations before - this is a piddle compared to other things. In my mind it is more a habit that has formed out of disorganisation, inabilities, disabilities and avoidance... I say there's no stress about the state of the house ~ and I do mean that on one level ~ it's got to the point of embarrassment through lack of consistent or even slightly regular tidying over the past two years. Yes, I could have, should have picked up the whip / slack earlier but I'd like to think there is no real point in saying who got it to this point - let's get it past this point.

We have decided we should budget our income around what our entitlements would be if we had to rely on benefits, giving ourselves the 'bonus' of rent assistance applicable against the mortgage payment. Sure, we'd not get this, but we'd not be spending so high on fuel, fares, food and pocket/sanity money – so we are giving it as a bonus, of sorts...

This works out to be around $725pw and we currently earn/receive $1155pw take home, this can fluctuate a little and can include per diems, allowances, part benefits, allowances, top-ups etc. There would be no fare or fuel costs if we were not working, so we are taking that out of all equations. That's about $200pw as hubby works 1.5-2hr commute one way from home staying in Melb two nights a week and Wednesday is his unpaid day off (UDO).

Clearly this is 'ball park' figures, although the amounts we have at the end are the real thing. A difference of $230pw and until the end of June, that is applied two ways – between the mortgage and credit card. Blasted plastic has had a beating – don't know why but I do know who so that must get a good lump back in – 10 x 200pw extra should have that almost square. We had been paying on what we spent, however there were a few extra things that hindsight says we could have done without half or more, but... *shrugs*

Uugggg ~ gonna gonna - - I've started and Friday & Saturday I had better get a heap of pics taken because I might look at this eBay or something like the Ballarat Trade Centre to sell about 3000 items cluttering up the house which have FINALLY been priced and sorted.

It's late - again....

Night