Yes ~ bit lax on the waffle and meanderings of late. Partly because there is 'action at the station' and I keep pretending things are going on with some normality while I struggle to stay awake some days ~ and stay awake with thoughts racing all night ~ but getting some de-cluttering of the home and head under way. Wishing it was going along faster ~ part of that is up to me as much as Husband, SmallBoy, others within life's travels. Feeling a bit stuck, more a loss of a sense of self-purpose. It's not like there is not heaps that needs to be done, the everyday and the must-dos, even lots of things I would like to be doing, some of those I'd enjoy doing.
But nup ~ can't be bothered really, not sure what it is I'm supposed to be doing any way. Ask for help professionally - it gets under way, in time, eventually. Seek support from family and friends - some of them you don't need to ask, others you ask, beg even and get told of your uselessness, faults, flaws. Make change within yourself, communicating your aspirations and directions ~ to repeat the process, and communications again, again, again...
The time of Happy House was a super motivator, losing those contacts and key reminders has had a little negative impact - but also reinforced again that this action is something which is up to me. It's not about being 'happy' or finding 'happiness' but more about finding that inner self peace, a sense of self in a place of satisfaction and bringing that into each moment of every day creating improvement or providing obtainable self-challenges.
As it is about to screen on television as part of Secrets and Lies on SBS documentary at the end of December, there are some promo pieces to view. If you have FaceBook you can look at some promotion videos here :
http://www.facebook.com/pages/House-Of-Food-Obsessives/152612314785370?v=wall&filter=1
Life is a bit like today's weather ~ started warm, calm and reasonably sunny. As the day went on it seemed to cloud over slowly until suddenly the temperature dropped, the skies were layers of greys, blues and blacks, thunder rumbled and the rain just fell! An hour or two of mayhem and suddenly the sun was out, the skies were blue and all was quiet and warm again. Getting a little chilly again, but that's just outside *grins* It is all a bit extreme, but as real as the storms we been experiencing, I do feel like I am being thrown about in a storm which has many calms between each burst of chaos and wildness.
Spending a lot of time over at Mands On A Mission ~ we've taken almost $4000 off the debt in two months. What a big dent - especially when we only had around the same in income. It's been an effort, but worth it. Some changes will make it a little more easily managed, hopefully! Please come over and have a look. Love to see you if you've not had a visit.
Been wonderful chatting ~ must get things ready for SmallBoy's birthday, then Husband's Christmas work dinner, my sister's Dirty 30 party, another sister's birthday, an afternoon tea with friends and a Baby Shower ~ then I can think about Christmas!
Should have a week to show off the tree and decorations up before the Red Dude arrives...
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